Depersonalization and being Transgender. A lack of identity, and feeling psychically disconnected from my body, combined with a sense of being born the wrong gender presents an interesting mix of feelings, or lack thereof. Normally one would expect a transgender person to be unhappy with their birth sex, and yes, while I’m generally dissatisfied being in a male body, over the years the feeling that I’m “connected” with my physical body has more or less eroded away. Read more

Identity, and Names A beautiful quote form a Disqus Blog post. In fact I find the quote quite aptly describes me. For example, I detest my birth name. While people I know in real life use it, when online friends refer to me by my online pseudonym, for some reason I find it less jarring. If I had to guess, the reason for this is because the majority of friends I’ve made throughout my life, have been online, so my sense of identity online strengthened while I dissociated from my real identity more and more. Read more

Preface: NSFW. This one might get weird, and rambly. That’s the difficulty with writing about things you don’t remember clearly. What is Gender Dysphoria? As not everybody reading this might know what gender dysphoria is right off, I’ll try to provide a simple definition. Gender dysphoria is a condition where a person emotionally and psychologically identifies as the opposite of one’s biological sex. E.g. A person who is biologically male would identify as female. Read more